Notes

Have you ever talked with God? I mean, actually had a conversation with them, a full dialogue, back and forth for half an hour or more. Since my “spiritual awakening” I’ve had interactions, or at least, what I could see as being interactions — with God, with the universe, with an understanding that goes beyond…

🔊 Listen (pending) — What’s the point of my life? When I started my job as a care worker, I didn’t think that this was a question I’d feel forced to face. But that’s where I would end up. Allow me to explain. — [[ new intro?: I loved my job as a care worker,…

Talking to Andy at the Gooey xmas: He said he wondered if the company slack was the best place to share my writing! But also said, he actually went back and re-read (and re-0read again) the poem I’d shared. I said, I’m glad he appreciated it. And also, that I am trying to branch out…

Walking home today, hungover from the Gooey xmas meetup last night, I’ve felt dreadful the whole day. It started to get really difficult about halfway home, I guess my meds had run out (I’d only brought with me the ones with the sudden cut-off). I was on my road, after climbing the gradually inclining hill,…

A little while ago, I realised something. I’ve always been critical of myself, never thinking I was good enough, always guilty for not being kinder, or giving more, or not noticing something at a time when that insight might have been beneficial to someone. But then, walking alone one day, it occurred to me that…

Write about the things that have shaped or boosted my self-confidence. This indirectly means I’ll also be writing about ways that I’ve disliked/punished myself. Combining the two lets me offer solutions to one of the realest, hardest problems a person could ever solve. Personal Phrases & Concepts: You are player 1 of your own game…

You can witness this concept in yourself quite easily. First you’ll need a baseline: How do you feel about yourself on a regular good day? Choose a time when you’re awake, alert, and free any duties or other pressures. Consider both your self-perception and your memories. Below are some prompts that might help you investigate…

Last year, while on furlough, I decided to embark on a mission of self-discovery, examining the parts of myself that I was less familiar with. (In hindsight, I think this was an attempt to rediscover a buried joy within me, after my passion for life had began to rot in a job I felt miserable…

There is a line in my life, dividing two parts: Before the family holiday in October of this year (2021), and after it. My life has changed since that time. I came away a new person. The shift has been subtle: Simply put, I am now — to re-use an earlier phrase — a self-comforted…

> I don’t see it like that, it’s more grey Hearing 1 person’s perspective — that wouldn’t have worked for me. I needed to hear it from a god-level entity, as my beliefs are god-level, i.e. they concern the fundamental nature of reality. A new human perspective can influence them, but I doubt they could have…

I’m sat here thinking about what I want form a relationship… Might be the first time I’ve done this. I’m thinking about what I’m looking for: Softness, at least at the moment. Someone I really fancy too, who does weird things to my mind and makes me feel weak in the ways you’d want them…