Memos

Twitter girl (Cally) in the music pub (John), saw work people first time after a long while Alistair: mental image where, let’s say BJ meets someone new for the first time. What if she didn’t pretend, but instead, was her self? Well, then, maybe there would be some darkness flickering, but for the most part…

Manual to spot bad people, cause most won’t see it coming. Covert manipulation in a few simple steps: 1. Create doubt and foster insecurity 1. Provide support + relief through control 1. Gently undermine constantly 1. Defer, deny, play dumb 1. Blame, say they are manipulating you 1. Attack 1. Repeat Step 1 is a…

Pre-Notes Tolerance of uncertainty: I constantly try to predict the future because I’m scared of repeating mistrakes of the past But I’m moving to a position of “so what? I can deal” Work: Panicking cause I’ve not applied But: I’ve needed to buld a portfolio, and I’ve been efficient with my time here And: If…

Pre-Notes More honest & aware Space for calmness & insight is growing Taking work things slowly Starting to remember who/what I am, not by force, but by letting things unfold: Starting to feel more motivated I’ve had a few potentially bad experiences, but I keep remembering the rules Notes My scores: Anxiety started really high,…

Burning my fears on an altar of hope Change the things you can change – Dr Oliver Clinton Baptiste REALISATIONS: The bad state = experiencing the depth of feeling, the whole thing, everything felt by everything Highly sensitive = connected to all, heightened sense of connectivity Headaches = comprehension of things the human brain can…

cbt If negative thoughts gain traction, they escalate If the don’t, if I can shrug it off, the following thoughts are minimal (can disengage) More risilient It’s natural and human that I have some anxieties and worries Expecting to not have those thoughts and worries = relatively high expectation It’s not that they don’t need…

Pre notes I think I’m probably depressed I have no energy, no motivation for the future I know I’m in the perfect position to change my life But I feel overwhelmed & exhausted, just thinking about the future It comes in waves. Generally I’m close to null but the best times are when I’m calm,…

[hypothetical piece] Mum said this was sparked by talk about a eulogy, so here’s what I would say. Eulogy for █████ █████ █████ was an upstanding citizen. I use these words in particular because I think that’s how █████ would put it. It’s succinct, accurate and humble. He might also add that he liked a…

Change is the only constant in this life Clougha Pike Don’t take it seriously Monstress The wicked and the divine Raise your vibration, Kyle gray Social contract Tumbly: Who am I etc… Used to be the most important thing. Not so much now. You know how much space that took up? Texts wi. S: I’m…

– I just want to be wrong + When you’re in a bad place, you notice how people are different to you. But when you’re in a good place, you notice how people are similar to you. + This could be used when you’re unhappy: rather than focusing on how separate from you other people…

9.1.17 ===== Your life — who, and where, you are right now — is your own doing, the product of your own actions. (Alan Watts, the book) 10.1.17 ====== Meds at 60mg triggered recall of memories, and an empathic response them. Highly unusual: I don’t remember the last time I actively remembered something and recalled…

Brene Brown – anatomy of trust / vulnerability Jim Carey – painting Selling people solutions