Cross your eyes. There: Two universes! ...Younger self trapped in that cave of darkness, shattered self... Wants to recover but there's a broken piece. Should she fill it, or cover it up and conceal it? --no. She's hanging on to this piece. It has things she wants to keep, but it's not connected to her. It exists, but it's dead. And the weight, of holding on to it, takes so much of her lightness. So that's the decision. --- I don't think it's worth exploring the darkness. I've been there and there's nothing you can take back with you. It's safe to let it go. If she lets go, that doesn't have to be forever. And however much she lets go, we will bring her back. - - that is, back to how she started. New. But with her all the same. --- The Well The Smog --- I remember the parts of you that were you. Not movie clips, but feelings. You were the most amazing thing that ever happened to me, and now you're the most amazing person. I love seeing you fulfil your fullest potential, it's beautiful you can only go as fast as you can imagine --- We spoke about black turning to grey, on an infinite universe scale, and she felt that warmth. It pierced the boundary between her self and the part she wants to let go of. Funnily enough, that part doesn't exist yet. --- I am ready to close the door on my darkness: The cosmic paranoia. I realised as I walked out of that black room, fumbling for a handle, finding the way out, then all at once -- just as I was leaving -- I comprehended the darkness, finally and again. As I crossed into the blissful ignorance of it, I said to myself : I never want to experience that again. It can fuck right off. Only things that flow make sense to me. Darkness there is extreme! Concerned that if u go back to () , u won't be able to escape ... Packing my bag: I put all the heavy things in 1 big bag, and was happy enough to lose it. I have all the important things! ... Tempering her enjoyment of life because she's worried that if she lets it in, she'll have to let the whole lot in. ... Which universe do u want to live in? ... Dedicate a time for it. ... The Bard class from rogue legacy lol! 😬 X
