Fragments of a Boy

A moment of calm. Tangent. Insight. Awaken. Butterfly drifts on

Infinite wishes, said Bernard again, that’s what I wish for. I would not advise that, replied the genie. Perhaps you would prefer a hundred, or a thousand wishes? You can’t trick me, Bernard scoffed, I know how it works. Give me infinite wishes. The genie replied: I understand the intention. However, I doubt you have…

🔊 Listen I’m enjoying moving around the spaces contained within these memories. It’s surprising how vivid they still are in my mind, the spatial awarenesses. And I can feel cemented memories being made – when I’ve moved through a memory before and go back to, for example, that day in my mind, then the memory…

Nov 2021, written in ~1hr I hold my tongue inside my headWon’t say what’s on my mindBecause I know if I’m myselfThen people run and hide They don’t like my winding wordsThe journeys, twists and turnsSo I stay quiet and keep things briefThat way I can’t be hurt It makes me think, what’s their world…

🔊 Listen You ever get a glass of water when you’re really thirsty, then when you drink it you’re like “oh my god yes, this is what’s been missing in my life” – and it’s as though nothing else exists except that pure feeling of blissful acceptance, a total one-ness with your body, an almost…

🔊 Listen (2021, first poem in around 10 years) I can’t dive like other people doThey can go down without holding their noseIf I do that, I choke right awayI’ve tried not to hold it in lots of ways, but stillIt doesn’t make sense to me So I built myself a submarineA protected shell to…

🔊 Listen There’s a part in Austin Powers 2, where Austin drinks some shit, knowing that it’s shit. His peers are baffled, why would you do that?! Watch the clip here:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=crI_dv1pdHo It reminds me of myself in a metaphorical way, a kind of “nonsense” explorer. Diving into something bizarre and inaccessible, just to see what’s…

for Matt, ~2006 The mechanics of desire never consideredThat you may be required to be beaten downAnd force-fed a farce of spit, spite and bloodSplit into halves by a sick diseased clown You were once a saint, among so many black heartsLooked so young as you waited in your tainted armourSo she argued with haste…

🔊 Listen In my teens I thought I was an ugly person, and that showed in the way I carried myself. I wore clothes that didn’t fit, I moped along, my hair was long and unkept. Whenever someone looked at me, I’d always be thinking they thought I was ugly. So I projected how unattractive…

(2008, written on a university bus) Dolphin dreams ofwalking with peopleIt’s on his to-do list,high up there, withbefriend a shark,start a business,and write an autobiography There’s a fair bit to put into it:He once dated a French girl,and saw King Neptune in a restaurantEven knew Ariel,before she sold out to Disney He reckons he’s had…

🔊 Listen About a year ago I decided to have better memories. It started with a message to myself on another blog, a single line of inspiration from some irretrievably forgotten place: “think further”. It evolved upon writing into: think (back) further I liked this idea. I’d already noticed that my memories seemed different to…

🔊 Listen I was thinking of my friend’s brother, who was hooked on heroin for about 5 years. I wondered, perhaps he wanted it. He’s a person who accomplishes what he sets out to do. He’s incredibly driven and naturally talented. If he wants to do something ─ that is, if he wants to experience…