Can you fill this out without lying?
- What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Finger tip! I bite my finger tips a lot. Never realised until now.
- Where was your profile picture taken?
About a month ago, on a camping trip with Ed that had a profound effect on my life. We spotted this solitary orange mushroom on the brick wall surrounding our campsite. There was nothing else like it around, it was so beautiful.
- Do you play Pokemon Go?
Nope, woulnd’t wanna try, I get too sucked into things.
- Name someone who made you laugh today?
This mum and daughter duo in the bank. The mum was getting all stressed and the kid was like “mum just chill”. The mum said the kid should put her leftover money in the bank, because not doing so is a bad idea, and the daughter’s just like “it’s fine in my purse mum”, no sass, just stating the fact. That kid was cool 🙂
- How late did you stay up last night and why?
Didn’t sleep last night so not sure. I think I got 30mins of sleep. I made the mistake of going to bed before midnight – if I do this, I’m always awake again by 1AM and can’t sleep that night.
- If you could move somewhere else, where would it be?
I’d rather live in Manchester right now, but I’d like to try a few different countries, including Germany (for a short while), the Netherlands, and America (after the next election cycle swings by).
- Ever been kissed under fireworks?
I don’t think so, but there are better times to kiss, when you wouldn’t miss the show!
- Which of your friends lives closest?
Dora lives in the same house as me!
- Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
Yeah of course, but it depends entirely on the people. A lot of my relationships ended because we didn’t like each other anymore, so we wouldn’t have wanted to be friends. Other relationships ended happily, although I acknowledge that I’m a bit oblivious to stuff like this, and who knows what someone else feels if they don’t tell you?
- How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
Love it! Is this an ad for Dr Pepper is disguise? Because now I want some.
- When was the last time you cried?
Tough question, althoguh this should be easy for me as I’m very teary! I probably cried a little during Great British Bake Off today, when one of the contestents started gettign teary themselves. The last proper cry was on that camping trip, but it was a different, catharctic cry that I’d never experienced before.
- Who took your profile picture?
Me!
- Who was the last person you took a picture of?
Some random person while snapping a picture of something that inspired me, which I do very often.
- Was yesterday better than today?
With the lack of sleep, yesterday has medled into today, but that’s a tough call. I read lots of Kafka yesterday, but I had a wonderful walk today. They were both fantastic, in very different ways. Probably today, because I was more present, and felt more alive – and more thankful to be a living, healthy human (probably spurred on by thoughts of Kafka!).
- Can you live a day without TV?
Sure, I have my phone! No screen at all means no music though, which would be tough. I’d just read graphic novels all day, or wander around Williamson Park and along the river.
- Are you upset about anything?
Nah, I don’t really hold upset feelings inside. I grapple with them with all my power, almost obsessively so, until they’ve been resolved. On the one hand, this can make me fiery to be around when I’m dealing with some heavy stuff, but on the other, most things don’t bother me (because I’ve already resolved them, so no need to resolve them again), and I’m so used to dealing with things that do, that they don’t bother me for long. I’ve had a few existential crises lately though, and they’re harder to work out, but once you accept the absurdity and unknowable nature of life, they’re not such a big deal.
- Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
I feel bad for the person who asked this question, and for anyone who answers negatively. Aside from abusive relationships, even the worst relationships are worth it, as everything in life can be a lesson, and experience, for whatever comes next. I’ve suffered deeply in some relationships, and for years (from 1 to 10) hated the memories, but eventually I recognised how helpful they’d been in forming the person I am now. I’m happy with where I am now, but I had to wade through a whole lot of shit to get here.
- Are you a bad influence?
It depends on the version of me you’re experiencing, what you hope to get from me, and what you define as a “bad influence”. Strong Catholic parents would not approve of my lifestyle, but my essence is a positive one. I don’t judge people, I’m very honest, I live to help and I have a lot of life experience for someone so young, so spending time with me can be very beneficial. Some people are very moody though and don’t understand me, and I seem to make them moodier — but that can’t be avoided (see the movie: Happy Go Lucky on Netflix).
- Night out or night in?
Technically “night out”, but starting and ending with a few hours spent in. It’s all about connections and the flow of ideas, and getting out and being actuve really helps that. Staying in can be way too distracting, and there’s always a host/attendee dynamic. Going out is liberating, and crucial for new thought formation.
- What items could you not go without during the day?
Toothbrush and toothpaste, for sure! Beyond that, as long as I’m hydrated and well fed, I’m happy.
- Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
I can’t even remember.
- What does the last text message in your inbox say?
“Should be home for then” – Although it’s normally some silly nonsense about chins and poop.
- How do you feel about your life right now?
I’m very bored and ready to move on to the next stage.
- Do you hate anyone?
Yes, absolutely: The arrogance of one single person has doomed the entire world to a miserable fate… but I don’t want to get into politics.
- If we were to look in your inbox what would we find?
Modstly nonsence words and accusations of being chin-faced.
- Has anyone ever called you perfect?
I would hope not! I’ve essentially been called perfect in my inperfections, which is really what you’d want.
- Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?
Charms, because 1) I don’t know anyone else brave/daft enough to climb up to a third-floor window, and 2) 2AM is a fine time to start some crazy business with Charms!
- Name something you have to do tomorrow?
I want to get some cleaning done, but the most important thing will be to decide what to read after Kafka. Do I want something huge and deep, or brief but dense?
- Do you think too much or too little?
I think too much about things I shouldn’t think about — paranoaid existential dread, revisiting guilt-ridden memories of a person who no longer exists, fears that my charming lack of awareness will fuck something up again.
But I’m getting over all this: Life is absurd and nobody can know anything for certain; If I’m the kind of person who obsesses over such regrets, I’m also the kind of person who can learn from them, accept the mistakes, and permit themselves move one (“the past is just a story you tell yourself” — Her, 2013); Of course I’ll fuck up again, but who won’t? I just have to make sure that when I inevitably bungle, I do so in good company. Making mistakes in the wrong company can cause mental scars that might feel like they can never heal (they can, with time and self love).
- Do you laugh a lot?
Yes!
- Do you have any fears?
Yes!