“Goodnight”
As I lay your fine head down to sleep
I bid you farewell and kiss your cheek
May you enter into your world of dreams
Where you meet and greet whomever you please
And as I too do go to bed
I pray that I meet you, inside my head
Used and Abused
Impure and worthless
Dirty and used
Mommy will be angry
Defiled and abused
Forced, i didn’t want it
Please don’t hate me
Mommy i’m sorry
Bad thoughts leave me be
Abandoned and stained
Pathetic and weak
Kind words of comfort
From mommy i seek
No solace you give me
A heart made of stone
I’m sorry i hurt you
…can i make it alone?
Jus’ Playin’
im jus’ playin, i say, as i punch you on the arm
im jus’ playin, i say, as i steal instead of lend
im jus’ playin, i say, as i mock all of your mates
im jus’ playin i say, as i fuck your closest friend
im jus’ playin, i say, as i rip your favourite toy
im jus’ playin, i say, as i leave you all alone
im jus’ playin, i say, as i fuck up your life
im jus’ playin, i say, as i rape you in your home
im jus’ playin, i say, as i insult your mother to your face
im jus’ playin, i say, as i push you out of bed
im jus’ playin, i say, as i cut into your heart
im jus’ playin, i say, as put a bullet in your head
another
I’m only another
On a bleak, poisoned earth
But i guess there’s no feeling
So what am i worth?
Tread down my body
Burn out my heart
I’ll smile, don’t worry
Just tear me apart
It’s not like i feel
Not with my wall
I’m just here to help
Pick you up when you fall
Desolation (aka, Wasteland)
All alone
In the land of your own
In the place you call home
You stand, all alone
Could you be like them?
Could you be something?
there’s no changing time, you are what you are
Did you ever feel a heartbeat thumping?
Deeper than the best;
Different to the rest
…Yet you remain in existence
The scar on my chest
Separate Ways
The corporate Bastard sat up in his chair
Smiling to himself with a selfish glee
He calls to the cleaner, “Boy, sit down!
I’ve got something to say!”
“I have so much cash, i own what i want
There’s nothing i need, anything can be mine
My life is perfection! I earn so much…
My salary’s a thou’, while yours, a mere dime!
“I’ll have my place, with my desk and my chair
As you clean off the shit from the toilet wall
I relax and recline, while you strive for your pay
I have got everything, you’ve nothing at all.”
That night, separate ways, they both leave their work
The Boy waits for the bus, Bastard speeds off home
The Boy hugs his love, bastard chills at his pad
Boy makes love through the night, bastard sleeps alone.
One More Chance
How many time have you had to fall?
Far too many… you’ve built your wall
But this time can be different from them all
Open up, heed my call
I feel your lust, i sense you need
Come to me, from my soul you can feed
I promise, this time, you shall not bleed
Open up, i can lead
One more chance is all i ask
Look into my eyes, forget the past
This time i have strength, unlike the last
My eyes are open, but my heart’s dropping fast…
Endless Love
Under a silver moonlit sky
I offer the sacrifice
Of my soul
Upon my cold slit wrists
These frantic hands
Slit my own throat
As the choir sings on
The sudden rush of adrenalin
The roar of tongues in my head
My skin splits like a pod
In The dying night
A dedication to out love
And my sacrifice collects
In the freezing blood-stained puddle
Drops hit the tarmac with an ignorant splash
This is myself
My sacrifice
To our endless love
Ocean Eyes (quick version)
Golden silver waves
Of harmony
Rolling curls
Above surface
Penetrates my heart
Stimulates my imagination
Thousands of tiny diamonds
Across the delicate sounds
Of the most popular creation
Since the sky
(*y)TRAP
Strange faces
Strange voices
Strange clothes
Bad choices
High class
Working class
Can of beer
Martini Glass
Mixed reception
Wrong appearance
Downward spiral
Dirty conscience
Closing in
I want out
No escape
Need to shout